My, my .. I'm really typing with gusto these days. Boredom? Can't be. I hardly have time for anything else lately. It's school, revision, sleep. Wash, rinse, repeat. Well, to be fair, I do slip in some personal time in-between. And thank heavens for the weekends! Might be escapism - I *know* I've got plenty to catch up on this morning before school. Like reading the entire chapter on gouty arthritis before my tutor flays me with his questions. But here I am, typing instead of sitting in desolate isolation and reading.

The pace of school is frightful. We started off our first week in the general medicine posting with respiratory diseases, 2nd week with cardiovascular, 3rd week with rheumatology and today, renal. And guess what? I don't think I'm even done with CVS. There my colleagues are, yammering off the details of mitral stenosis and regurgitation like they were born with the information, and I'll be: "What's that?". LOVELY. Plenty to catch up on along the lines of reading, I see. CVS is a lost cause now, perhaps I'll do what I can during the weekend to at least learn history taking and physical examination of the rheumatological system. Oh crap ... and I kinda promised myself it'll be my first non-working weekend. OK then, Saturday shall be work, and Sunday must be kept free. It's frightful to feel like I'm losing control of the situation. Not that I'm a control freak, but I DO like to feel in control when it comes to the direction I'm taking in my studies. Right now it's not the case; rather, I'm trailing far behind and desperately scrambling to catch up with the grotesque pace. Most alarmingly, my groupmates seem to possess an infinite amount of knowledge sometimes. Scary!

Going to go for a buffet dinner tonight with a bunch of dear friends. It'll be a nice change to feel ... human again, I guess. Guilt will pester me no end, as usual, but heck! I probably won't be doing anything productive even without the dinner.